I know I have been out of balance lately, and reading my friend RhapsodyBoheme’s post, I realize that’s how I should put it in words.
I have known that I am trying to work as much as possible at both my jobs, and I’ve been sleep deprived this month. I know what I’ve been trying to do to myself. And even my husband comments on me always working, and I know it. Knowing it doesn’t change anything though. Until I buckle down and change it!! haha
Now, I think it is actually fine to go through periods and phases of work-work-work, because when money needs to be made, and things have to get done at work, it just must be done! But then my body tells me that it’s unsatisfied. My hours have been crazy at work, so I have been tired, and my brain fuzzy and unfocused, and I haven’t spent a lick of time outside, and I don’t give myself time to exercise or dance. I just work, and spend time on my phone on my down time, on my Instagram fandom creating stories (if you’re my IG friend, you realize this) and also reading my books on my phone (since my Nook has passed on into the other world 😦 – super sad, RIP Nook-Reader). The amount of time I’m on the internet has a play as well in the headaches/migraines I’ve been having.
The interesting not-fun fact is, I get migraines/headaches a bit, and I have scoliosis so that is a big cause. My neck has completely straight, when it’s supposed to have a natural curve. Although I am trying exercises to get a curve back. Anyway, the weight of my head on my neck is hard to handle. Anyway… so I get headaches and nothing helps except visits to the chiropractor (I go every two weeks nowadays, but I wish it was every week), and pain-killers such as Advil or Tylenol.
I’ve tried everything else to get rid of headaches – massage, long baths, sleep (if I sleep with a headache, I awaken with a worse one), and some herbal remedies that haven’t worked. (I’m open to trying more herbal remedies, in fact I goal set for one to work for me! So if you have an idea, please share it.) I’ve taken Advil for about five days straight this week, and this morning, I woke up with such a bloody headache that I tell you – I started questioning myself.
My day so far: Finally getting enough sleep last night, I was off today at home. Of course, I’m supposed to type at home whenever I have a free day off. I’m always supposed to type, according to my own head, hehe. But I moved quite slowly today. Amidst petting kitties, I got my breakfast, wrote some fan-fiction stories, read some of a book, then did a bunch of darn dishes and cleaned the counters because our kitchen was a wreck!!! Utter wreck. So I spent hours cleaning, but I felt better afterwards (kind of therapeutic). I tried to take a walk outside, but the mosquitoes were so bad I went inside before 5 minutes was up. I was sad. I enjoy the nature. But literally fighting off the mosquitoes got annoying. And sometimes they won and got me. So… I went inside. *Hopes for autumn to come so the mosquitoes won’t be as bad*
Now I’m here typing, about to help edit a book, about to try and type, and about to try to squeeze belly dancing in my day as my new videos came yesterday, and my husband will be home soon.
I always goal set to do a lot in a day 🙂
But today has been a more balanced day off for me. Yes, I will type some because I have a very large overdue file in. But I am more balanced. I just need to add meditating in here somewhere too. 🙂
What do you do when you feel out of balance? Do you feel in or out of balance now?
Namaste with Love,