Lost Serenity – a Poem

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Lost Serenity

It trickles,

Crawling in bubbling inches.

That time of awe I felt

The lost serenity

Resonating nothing and everything,

Grapple me until I fell,

Taken over,

It wrecked what I thought,

Shattered my humanity

And I liked it.

~Celestial K.

Celestialk.weebly.com

 

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This is a reflection of my meditation experience some time last week. In the bathwater, I listened to one of my meditation apps that I love.

Insight Timer is the best meditation app, because it gives you a bunch of:

1) Free meditations

2) different kinds of meditations (such as guided, chants, unguided, etc.)

3) Full length meditations

 

Balance is one of the things I struggle with, balancing my time and energy to do things my body needs instead of just trying to make money/make ends meet.

Even if I love my jobs, I still want time to bellydance, meditate, do yoga, take a walk outside, play with my kitties, and watch Vampire Diaries. ūüėÄ ‚̧

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Namaste with love,

Celestial K.

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Piccolo Fairy Tunes

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Some Fairy Music of mine for you…

I was encouraged by a new friend to take out my piccolo *dusts off* and play some tunes! I love improvising, of course.

Here’s a very short clip of me playing today!

I had longer clips, but they weren’t too great, as I’m still getting used to playing again. It’s hard when your embouchure muscles aren’t used to playing anymore. Maybe I’ll post some other videos later and they’ll be even better.

But here’s some little Fairy music for you to enjoy.

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Feel inspired!

Namaste with Love,

Celestial K.

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Simple Moments are Life

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Can Simple Moments be what our life is made for? 

Breathe in.

Does our soul actually crave the Simple Moments in life?

We are trained so hard in our society to exist, in many ways, contrary to our natural state. 

Think about that statement for a minute.

  • We are trained to go-go-go instead of sit in the Moment in Peace.
  • We are trained to think Money is the Master.
  • We are not trained to appreciate Art in terms of hierarchy of money and class.
  • We are trained to think we’re no good if we aren’t accomplishing something.

This list can go on for a very long time.

When I speak of society, I speak mainly of my experience growing up in the Southern US. But I am willing to bet we are not the only ones brought up in these manners of deciding what is important.

What if our nature IS PEACE? LIGHT? ARTISTIC? RESTFUL? Just a few examples.

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Savannah River in Augusta, GA – my hometown. I really miss it being landlocked like I am now.

Why would we be trained to go AGAINST our nature? We can question why those in control of our society would want us to be against our true nature. If we’re peaceful, we won’t create wars. Those in control like chaos. If we humans believe¬†money¬†shows the value of our worth, then stuff becomes important, high paying but perhaps meaningless jobs becomes important to attain and… we become blinded. Blinded to what’s important (spirit) and blinded to what “they” (those in control) don’t want us to see. Perhaps that we are all light, spirit, and so powerful that we are limitless? They don’t want us to know that.

Honestly, I wasn’t going to get into all the political conspiracies out there of what is really going on in our society and who is in control. I’m a New-Age believer, so a few googles of the Illuminate or David Icke or the like can let you on to those paths of inner-thinkings. It’s not for me to tell you exactly what to believe, but to question – why is it like this, and how can I change it?

You can change yourself (with effort, dedication, work, and being easy on yourself). 

Now what this blog post was SUPPOSED to delve into first was – Simple Moments. (Did I get side tracked?)

The fact that those simple moments between your go-go-go life where you aren’t thinking about work, or what you’re going to do next, or what you’re going to eat next or blah blah blah… you’re saying to yourself, “Wow, the sky looks beautiful today, actually.” Or, you aren’t thinking anything, just enjoying a few moments of cuddling with your loved one.

That last one is me, a lot. I am an extremely goal-oriented person. I want to succeed. I want to be good at my job and my goals. (I’m not always good at them but gosh I try.) I have to do this and that – making lists in my head as I go so I don’t forget what needs to be done. Go-go-go.

I don’t break away from that easily.

Except on vacations. Or small moments, the ones I’m talking about, when I perhaps cuddle with my husband. My mind will tell me that I don’t have time for that. That I have to go do this, do that. Type. Prepare to go to work. Whatever the case may be. But sometimes I just tell that part of my mind to shut the hell up and let me cuddle and enjoy the moment.

It’s hard to listen to your own advice sometimes, and for me, learning to enjoy these simple moments is truly a working progress. I have to really work at letting myself enjoy some simple things, like really enjoy that sip of coffee instead of always doing something else running around while I’m drinking that coffee. It’s small reminders – oh yes, take a sip, taste that? Isn’t it good? Isn’t this what you’re here to experience?

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This picture taken on our first anniversary where we went to the same places we did on our first date – Inman Perk Coffee Shop! Enjoy that coffee ūüėȬ†

Life. (Life is coffee?!)

We go-go-go, because we’re trained to be that way, it’s ingrained in us, we think we must be accomplishing something or we’re worthless. However, what if we cultivated a different way of thinking? (I’m not saying I support the lazing-on-the-couch-while-your-parents-pay-the-rent generation that some have fallen into. That’s another discussion completely.) If you enjoy this moment in time, whether you are accomplishing something or not, maybe it is an important moment.¬†

I’m just saying, soul-level, you are worth so much. God/Spirit/Creator will not be disappointed in you, whether you accomplish your goals or not, but in how gentle your spirit is, and how hard you try to be a good person.

Why are we in the flesh? That’s a good question with multiple broad answers. But I bet one of them is to experience simple, enjoyable activities, such as celebrating Christmas with family, and birthdays with friends, and the feel of the water against your toes, and the smell of flowers that fairies have surely grown.

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My friend and¬†me in 2011, those years ago when we lived near each other, enjoying a simple moment ūüėÄ And having lots of fun!

This post is getting long. I really need to write a book.

I have much to say, but I’ll let you contemplate the thoughts I have shared, all my own opinions. Do you have any insight/ input? Think I’m wrong? Isn’t it super hard to enjoy those simple moments? Do you struggle with it or find it easy? Could you incorporate it into your daily practice?

I’ll stop spouting out questions to you. ūüėÄ

Namaste with Love,

Celestial K.

I live for…

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Sometimes I have to think… what keeps me going? Why am I working so hard? All for what? It can’t be money. More like, memories to make with spending the money. It can’t be just for survival. It has to be about relationships with the beautiful people who have touched my life.

I live for those moments that I can spend with my husband. He is my love, he is my life, and after life. Our jobs do a good job at separating us sometimes, but we got to spend some time together these past few days, and the memories are something to keep in my heart! ‚̧

I live for the chance to breathe in nature. Not when it’s freezing outside, like today. But I’m living for the expectation that spring is around the corner. Living in the southern state of GA in the US, I am absolutely grateful that spring and summers and fall are usually quite warm seasons! (And in this years’ case, winter too…but today is freezing.)

I live for the chance to continue to travel the world!¬†I love to travel – I’ve been to many places in the US, including California, and New York City, Hawaii, Alaska, and Florida… but there’s still more to see! I’ve been to several places outside of the US, too, like Mexico, Canada, Jamaica, Honduras, England (my favorite!), Germany, Russia, Sweden, Denmark and more. Many of these places I’ve only experienced briefly on a cruise. So I’d love to spend more time in Europe in my life! I have a love for England and Ireland, and I took French, so I really want to visit France. My family has Russian and German roots, so I went to spend more time in these places, too. Also, I love to travel to the beach! I live hours away from one, now, unfortunately. But maybe one day I’ll move closer to one again–or even the mountains! Who knows where the future will take us for vacations or ¬†beyond?!

I live for the time I’ll¬†find my kitty¬†soul mate again. I had my Darlen, my Siamese, my precious cat who was with me most of my life and the companion exactly matching my soul, and one whom I could trust dearly. She passed on before Brian & I moved to our beautiful home and got married. I always told her when she passes on, her soul¬†needs to find me again in reincarnation. After her passing, I realized that maybe she’s happier being body-less? She had a lot of problems and surgeries in her time with me. She lived to be 14. So maybe it’s a selfish thing to want her back. So maybe another animal soul mate will come to me? I truly miss the companionship. We have Brian’s cat Eesha who likes me enough, but the connection isn’t nearly as strong. She scratched me deeply once, and I still have a scar. (I didn’t talk to her for like a month.) ¬†Brian and I hope in the future to get two cats who love each other, (kind of mirroring his parent’s twin gold-point Siamese cats Rowan and Merlin), and we each get to name one cat. We’ve already picked out the names of our cats ūüėÄ We’re waiting for more financial freedom available before we get these dream-kitties though.

I live for friends and family, present and future. I say this because I’ve always believed friends (and love) is the meaning of life. Those deep friendships. Many of my friends who I’ve been connected to for many years live two hours away. One won’t even visit my house because she has bad asthma and can’t stand a cat. My friends are fantastic, but are not with me often. That makes me sad. But I do live for them, and also for the possibility of new friends in the future. I also live for my family in the respect of Brian is my love and we will one day most likely have children. We want children, just still not ready for them yet. Enjoying just being a couple. I’m not getting into the rest of the family to mention how grateful or not I am of them. Each person has a different story. In my mind, my story with Brain is the most important. ‚̧ (Ain’t I a ROMANTIC?! Lol I am, and luckily so is he.)

I live so that I can keep writing and get my¬†novel published! Been working on this novel¬†since I was 13 years old. It’s bound to be completely finished and published in some magical way soon… ūüėČ Hey, at least I got a poetry book out! Celestialk.weebly.com ūüėÄ Self-published. Yeah, I don’t want to go the self-publishing route again, but we’ll see what the future holds.

I realize when I step back, I have a lot to live for, many memories to reminisce on when I feel like it, and so much to look forward to.

What are some things you are living for? What keeps you going? 

Namaste,

~Celestial K.

Dance ~ a poem

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The Creator made all
this universe inhale life
and sat back to watch it play.
 
Now who pulls at the painful
strings to tug the Earth
to this unwanted dance?
 
~Celestial K.
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earth dancingThis little poem says a lot.
I think of how this planet is so beautiful and has potential for such joy. But the way our lives are run have great flaws, and so everything can’t be the best it can be.
I am not deep into politics, and I don’t have ideas of how to fix government. I would, however, vouch for finding out who all, with war-ful hearts, are causing the injustice, un-peace, ¬†dissatisfaction, and unfairness in our world, and then replace them with people who care about:
1) The planet Earth and keeping her healthy and happy and
2) The people and animals who inhabit the planet, and making sure we are also healthy and happy.
Different countries (and states) also run in different manners. But one that perhaps can relate is money. Through my involvement in New Age, I’ve listened to speakers and writers w ho have done the research and are convinced there is enough money in this whole world for everyone to have some and no one to go hungry. BUT the people with the power want the money, and don’t want to give it away. Do your own research and think what you will,¬†but this is what I believe.
Despite all of that, I still think that most people are over-worked and underpaid. I say this through my personal experience and what I observe. We spend most of our lives working, and we absolutely must work to pay bills (unless you inherit money or are married to someone with money or something of that nature). And we work so much, often we forget that the most PRECIOUS thing we have on this planet is TIME with people we love! 
In my life, although ¬†I completely love my careers now and the work that I do, I’m finding I’m not spending time at home and with my husband like I want. Especially my nights and weekends are taken away, because I work managing events, and many events are on nights and weekends! I do not want to complain, I just want more time with my husband and more time at home, and that’s something personal that I’m going to have to work through by projecting what I want for the future. That’s another good thing about creating your own reality… you find what you want and what you don’t want through experience, and then you have to take steps to change it. In my case, I’m not sure how I am going to create time for myself and my husband, but cosmically, what is supposed to happen will happen once I start creating the thoughts.
This is getting me into the topic of creating my own reality, which I should save for another day. If you have an interest in that topic, you can ask me about it, and/or I would strongly recommend the book: Ask and It is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires by Esther and Jerry Hicks. 
That all being said, there are MANY positive changes that Mother Earth needs to go through, and our lives needs to go through! But it has to start with us. Praying (like projecting your desires) is a power that we all have. If you want positive change in this world to take place with our¬†leaders, our planet’s health, saving our¬†animals, making a more fair work system or health insurance system or anything else you can think of… please pray with me on it. Project positive into the future.
Namaste!!
‚̧ Celestial K.¬†