Balance

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I know I have been out of balance lately, and reading my friend RhapsodyBoheme’s post, I realize that’s how I should put it in words.

I have known that I am trying to work as much as possible at both my jobs, and I’ve been sleep deprived this month. I know what I’ve been trying to do to myself. And even my husband comments on me always working, and I know it. Knowing it doesn’t change anything though. Until I buckle down and change it!! haha

Now, I think it is actually fine to go through periods and phases of work-work-work, because when money needs to be made, and things have to get done at work, it just must be done! But then my body tells me that it’s unsatisfied. My hours have been crazy at work, so I have been tired, and my brain fuzzy and unfocused, and I haven’t spent a lick of time outside, and I don’t give myself time to exercise or dance. I just work, and spend time on my phone on my down time, on my Instagram fandom creating stories (if you’re my IG friend, you realize this) and also reading my books on my phone (since my Nook has passed on into the other world 😦 – super sad, RIP Nook-Reader). The amount of time I’m on the internet has a play as well in the headaches/migraines I’ve been having.

The interesting not-fun fact is, I get migraines/headaches a bit, and I have scoliosis so that is a big cause. My neck has completely straight, when it’s supposed to have a natural curve. Although I am trying exercises to get a curve back. Anyway, the weight of my head on my neck is hard to handle. Anyway… so I get headaches and nothing helps except visits to the chiropractor (I go every two weeks nowadays, but I wish it was every week), and pain-killers such as Advil or Tylenol.

I’ve tried everything else to get rid of headaches – massage, long baths, sleep (if I sleep with a headache, I awaken with a worse one), and some herbal remedies that haven’t worked. (I’m open to trying more herbal remedies, in fact I goal set for one to work for me! So if you have an idea, please share it.) I’ve taken Advil for about five days straight this week, and this morning, I woke up with such a bloody headache that I tell you – I started questioning myself.

My day so far: Finally getting enough sleep last night, I was off today at home. Of course, I’m supposed to type at home whenever I have a free day off. I’m always supposed to type, according to my own head, hehe. But I moved quite slowly today. Amidst petting kitties, I got my breakfast, wrote some fan-fiction stories, read some of a book, then did a bunch of darn dishes and cleaned the counters because our kitchen was a wreck!!! Utter wreck. So I spent hours cleaning, but I felt better afterwards (kind of therapeutic). I tried to take a walk outside, but the mosquitoes were so bad I went inside before 5 minutes was up. I was sad. I enjoy the nature. But literally fighting off the mosquitoes got annoying. And sometimes they won and got me. So… I went inside. *Hopes for autumn to come so the mosquitoes won’t be as bad*

Now I’m here typing, about to help edit a book, about to try and type, and about to try to squeeze belly dancing in my day as my new videos came yesterday, and my husband will be home soon.

I always goal set to do a lot in a day 🙂

But today has been a more balanced day off for me. Yes, I will type some because I have a very large overdue file in. But I am more balanced. I just need to add meditating in here somewhere too. 🙂

What do you do when you feel out of balance? Do you feel in or out of balance now?wowww my balance picc

 

Namaste with Love,

Celestial K.

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Sleep Paralysis

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I wanted to make a quick blog about my experience last night.

I spent about 30 minutes to an hour in sleep paralysis right after I fell asleep. It’s strange to explain what exactly it is, if you haven’t experienced it. I was trying to tell my husband about it, but he didn’t make many comments. But he was also tired/ watching TV, but I don’t think he knew what I was talking about. This isn’t the first time in my life I’ve experienced sleep paralysis of course. But many people do, so I wanted to explain this experience and give you advice about what to do if you’re stuck in this situation.

Wikipedia says its “a phenomenon during which an individual is unable to move during falling asleep or awakening, but is aware of their surroundings.”

It’s an out of body experience, when your soul or astral body is outside of your body, yet sometimes you can feel like you’re in your body, but you still can’t move. Your brain is aware you’re laying there. Sleep paralysis isn’t always bad, as it means you’re in your astral from and can travel without the need for your body.

In this particular night, my astral body was zooming around, yet it was extremely uncomfortable. I felt like I was falling from great heights, in and out of black holes of the universe, but it was all very unwanted and made my heart race.

questionable black hole

I heard a voice. This negative energy was around me, and I believe it was holding me down. It imitated my dad’s voice. But it wasn’t him.

For what felt like a long time, I realized that all of this uncomfortable-ness was going on, that it was a horrible “dream,” that I wanted to wake up.

The strange thing about last night was, I had to fight my way out. I was having the uncomfortable presence on me, hearing my dad’s voice but not him, in a menacing, mocking language, angry presence… and for some reason I knew I had to get my backbone if he was to leave me. Once I had this epiphany, I pretended I had muscles, shouted back at the angry presence to leave me alone and whatever else I said. I made myself barge into it, attack it, fight with it. I would say flesh against flesh, but in a spiritual sense. Obviously we’re not physical beings at this level.  I felt this.

It only took a moment of me fighting, and I knew I fought back the presence… demon, whatever you wish to call it. It was gone. Somehow inside me, I knew that would work right before I did it. And then, I was awake.

Many might experience this kind of sleep paralysis. Think about it. Some people, like my husband, may never. Those of us closer to the spirit world who have experience out-of-body-experiences, might have them moreso. Imagine how many people might experience this, but never write about it. Well, here I am writing about it.

If you are not careful, once you break out of the paralysis, it has the ability to come back when you fall asleep again. But I knew how to prevent that from happening.

I was freaked out a bit, and so very tired. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. I hand not been asleep an hour. Then I called upon my spiritual protections, Jesus, Michael the Archangels, Mother Mary, my Guardian Angel… you can call whoever you feel will protect you. (It’s okay if you don’t believe in these beings I called.) I called them in and asked for protection while I slept, and the ability to fight off any negativity that comes my way. I prayed to sleep in peace the rest of the night.

It worked. I slept without a problem. In fact, I didn’t remember I had this sleep paralysis until a moment ago, when I recollected it. And I was like… “Wow, that was real.” I knew it was something important I had to share.

Spiritual protections are so important!

  • Imagining yourself in a bubble of pure white light, made of the Creator’s spirit, who can handle anything and protect anything trying to harm you.
  • Envisioning shields of protection around you.
  • Programming a crystal to protect you or your sleep. (You can program a crystal to do anything for you, really.)
  • Lighting smudge/dried sage in the house clears the negative energies.
  • Lighting candles.
  • Communicating with your angels and spirit guides. Imagining your spirit form strong. Feel it.
  • Call in your Power Animals to fight with you, such as the Tiger or even a Dragon.

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These are all good forms of protection, to get you started. It chased away the “Demon,” or whatever you wish to call it, that attacked me while in sleep paralysis.

If you have any questions about how to do these spiritual protection methods, ask me. I know I didn’t go into a lot of detail with this. But I plan to go more in depth later in my blogs, as the need arises. But I’m perfectly happy to give you the information I know if you are asking for my guidance.

Just leave a comment.

And… have you ever experienced something like this? Let me know.

Namaste, With Love.

Celestial K.

Celestialk.weebly.com 

Penning Your Dreams

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A few things I’ve noticed about my dreams: 

  1. The longer I sleep, the more I remember dreaming (and usually it’s clearer)
  2. I’ll remember my dreams more if I write them down, any details that I remember and/or talk about them. The act of writing down the dream actually helps me to see & remember dreams for the following night, so that’s also a plus!

Many times there are days that I don’t have time to write down my full dream. One method I could use is to record scraps of my dream either on paper or in the Notes in my phone, and then later record it in fuller detail. Yes, I keep a journal where I can write my thoughts, poems, as well as dreams. (Perhaps I should have three separate journals, but I just have one.)

The glimpses I’ve written down lead me to remember more details than if I’m trying to record a dream hours later and haven’t even thought about it since I woke up. My dream will fade away. But the act of writing or speaking about the dream right after definitely helps.

Why would you want to remember your dreams?!

Dreams are another world to me, many different worlds. I like to remember the nice dreams, the strange dreams. I don’t like the bad dreams, but I write those down, too, so that I keep up with the train of dreams I’m writing, because it will help me to remember my dreams for the next night. (I hope this makes sense. Has anyone else experienced this, where you remember future dreams clearer because you’ve recorded past ones?)

I also want to remember dreams because if I look at them closely, I will see patterns, clues, hints to my life and foreseeing some of future, or perhaps what I need to work on or forgive. Sometimes dreams are just fun, but others they have meaning to. Also, I like remembering dreams, because I feel like I’ve escaped from the chaotic world this physical reality has become.

I’ve been running around these past few weeks, sleeping too little to remember my dreams much, and if I did, I was too busy to record them. This morning was the first time in awhile I recorded my dreams, so I thought I would share my method and the reason behind my method, to see if anyone else could benefit from doing it, too.

I’m sure I will write more about dreams later!

Have you recorded your dreams?

Namaste,

~Celestial K.

Celestialk.weebly.com (My poetry book: Soul Thoughts: Poetry for Our Growing Spirits).