Fiddling n’ Singing

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Hello lovelies!

 

Here I am singing my heart out… when I’m the last person to close at work, and I’ve got the building to myself… ohhhh the Acoustics!!!

Perfection 😀

 

I love singing. I’m not a part of a group at this moment, but I love to do it for myself.

Do you thing singing and music can have healing powers?

❤ 

Namaste with love,

Celestial K.

 

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Balance

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I know I have been out of balance lately, and reading my friend RhapsodyBoheme’s post, I realize that’s how I should put it in words.

I have known that I am trying to work as much as possible at both my jobs, and I’ve been sleep deprived this month. I know what I’ve been trying to do to myself. And even my husband comments on me always working, and I know it. Knowing it doesn’t change anything though. Until I buckle down and change it!! haha

Now, I think it is actually fine to go through periods and phases of work-work-work, because when money needs to be made, and things have to get done at work, it just must be done! But then my body tells me that it’s unsatisfied. My hours have been crazy at work, so I have been tired, and my brain fuzzy and unfocused, and I haven’t spent a lick of time outside, and I don’t give myself time to exercise or dance. I just work, and spend time on my phone on my down time, on my Instagram fandom creating stories (if you’re my IG friend, you realize this) and also reading my books on my phone (since my Nook has passed on into the other world 😦 – super sad, RIP Nook-Reader). The amount of time I’m on the internet has a play as well in the headaches/migraines I’ve been having.

The interesting not-fun fact is, I get migraines/headaches a bit, and I have scoliosis so that is a big cause. My neck has completely straight, when it’s supposed to have a natural curve. Although I am trying exercises to get a curve back. Anyway, the weight of my head on my neck is hard to handle. Anyway… so I get headaches and nothing helps except visits to the chiropractor (I go every two weeks nowadays, but I wish it was every week), and pain-killers such as Advil or Tylenol.

I’ve tried everything else to get rid of headaches – massage, long baths, sleep (if I sleep with a headache, I awaken with a worse one), and some herbal remedies that haven’t worked. (I’m open to trying more herbal remedies, in fact I goal set for one to work for me! So if you have an idea, please share it.) I’ve taken Advil for about five days straight this week, and this morning, I woke up with such a bloody headache that I tell you – I started questioning myself.

My day so far: Finally getting enough sleep last night, I was off today at home. Of course, I’m supposed to type at home whenever I have a free day off. I’m always supposed to type, according to my own head, hehe. But I moved quite slowly today. Amidst petting kitties, I got my breakfast, wrote some fan-fiction stories, read some of a book, then did a bunch of darn dishes and cleaned the counters because our kitchen was a wreck!!! Utter wreck. So I spent hours cleaning, but I felt better afterwards (kind of therapeutic). I tried to take a walk outside, but the mosquitoes were so bad I went inside before 5 minutes was up. I was sad. I enjoy the nature. But literally fighting off the mosquitoes got annoying. And sometimes they won and got me. So… I went inside. *Hopes for autumn to come so the mosquitoes won’t be as bad*

Now I’m here typing, about to help edit a book, about to try and type, and about to try to squeeze belly dancing in my day as my new videos came yesterday, and my husband will be home soon.

I always goal set to do a lot in a day 🙂

But today has been a more balanced day off for me. Yes, I will type some because I have a very large overdue file in. But I am more balanced. I just need to add meditating in here somewhere too. 🙂

What do you do when you feel out of balance? Do you feel in or out of balance now?wowww my balance picc

 

Namaste with Love,

Celestial K.

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Simple Moments are Life

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Can Simple Moments be what our life is made for? 

Breathe in.

Does our soul actually crave the Simple Moments in life?

We are trained so hard in our society to exist, in many ways, contrary to our natural state. 

Think about that statement for a minute.

  • We are trained to go-go-go instead of sit in the Moment in Peace.
  • We are trained to think Money is the Master.
  • We are not trained to appreciate Art in terms of hierarchy of money and class.
  • We are trained to think we’re no good if we aren’t accomplishing something.

This list can go on for a very long time.

When I speak of society, I speak mainly of my experience growing up in the Southern US. But I am willing to bet we are not the only ones brought up in these manners of deciding what is important.

What if our nature IS PEACE? LIGHT? ARTISTIC? RESTFUL? Just a few examples.

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Savannah River in Augusta, GA – my hometown. I really miss it being landlocked like I am now.

Why would we be trained to go AGAINST our nature? We can question why those in control of our society would want us to be against our true nature. If we’re peaceful, we won’t create wars. Those in control like chaos. If we humans believe money shows the value of our worth, then stuff becomes important, high paying but perhaps meaningless jobs becomes important to attain and… we become blinded. Blinded to what’s important (spirit) and blinded to what “they” (those in control) don’t want us to see. Perhaps that we are all light, spirit, and so powerful that we are limitless? They don’t want us to know that.

Honestly, I wasn’t going to get into all the political conspiracies out there of what is really going on in our society and who is in control. I’m a New-Age believer, so a few googles of the Illuminate or David Icke or the like can let you on to those paths of inner-thinkings. It’s not for me to tell you exactly what to believe, but to question – why is it like this, and how can I change it?

You can change yourself (with effort, dedication, work, and being easy on yourself). 

Now what this blog post was SUPPOSED to delve into first was – Simple Moments. (Did I get side tracked?)

The fact that those simple moments between your go-go-go life where you aren’t thinking about work, or what you’re going to do next, or what you’re going to eat next or blah blah blah… you’re saying to yourself, “Wow, the sky looks beautiful today, actually.” Or, you aren’t thinking anything, just enjoying a few moments of cuddling with your loved one.

That last one is me, a lot. I am an extremely goal-oriented person. I want to succeed. I want to be good at my job and my goals. (I’m not always good at them but gosh I try.) I have to do this and that – making lists in my head as I go so I don’t forget what needs to be done. Go-go-go.

I don’t break away from that easily.

Except on vacations. Or small moments, the ones I’m talking about, when I perhaps cuddle with my husband. My mind will tell me that I don’t have time for that. That I have to go do this, do that. Type. Prepare to go to work. Whatever the case may be. But sometimes I just tell that part of my mind to shut the hell up and let me cuddle and enjoy the moment.

It’s hard to listen to your own advice sometimes, and for me, learning to enjoy these simple moments is truly a working progress. I have to really work at letting myself enjoy some simple things, like really enjoy that sip of coffee instead of always doing something else running around while I’m drinking that coffee. It’s small reminders – oh yes, take a sip, taste that? Isn’t it good? Isn’t this what you’re here to experience?

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This picture taken on our first anniversary where we went to the same places we did on our first date – Inman Perk Coffee Shop! Enjoy that coffee 😉 

Life. (Life is coffee?!)

We go-go-go, because we’re trained to be that way, it’s ingrained in us, we think we must be accomplishing something or we’re worthless. However, what if we cultivated a different way of thinking? (I’m not saying I support the lazing-on-the-couch-while-your-parents-pay-the-rent generation that some have fallen into. That’s another discussion completely.) If you enjoy this moment in time, whether you are accomplishing something or not, maybe it is an important moment. 

I’m just saying, soul-level, you are worth so much. God/Spirit/Creator will not be disappointed in you, whether you accomplish your goals or not, but in how gentle your spirit is, and how hard you try to be a good person.

Why are we in the flesh? That’s a good question with multiple broad answers. But I bet one of them is to experience simple, enjoyable activities, such as celebrating Christmas with family, and birthdays with friends, and the feel of the water against your toes, and the smell of flowers that fairies have surely grown.

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My friend and me in 2011, those years ago when we lived near each other, enjoying a simple moment 😀 And having lots of fun!

This post is getting long. I really need to write a book.

I have much to say, but I’ll let you contemplate the thoughts I have shared, all my own opinions. Do you have any insight/ input? Think I’m wrong? Isn’t it super hard to enjoy those simple moments? Do you struggle with it or find it easy? Could you incorporate it into your daily practice?

I’ll stop spouting out questions to you. 😀

Namaste with Love,

Celestial K.

Hungry

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I commute to the city to work, about 45 minutes drive usually.

I know, I never wanted to be in a commuting position. But working at my dad’s Alma Mater college was too much of an opportunity to give up, even if it’s working part time in their events.

I use the time in my car to listen to music, podcasts, or meditations.

I was deeply engaged in my Paranormal Podcast by Jim Harold (which I recommend!!!) when the light turned green, and I realized there was a man on the street who looked homeless, who had a simple sign:

“Hungry, Please Help.”

But I was already driving with the flow of traffic, and  he was one lane over from me, even if we were stopped.

But I didn’t see him until it was too late. For some reason, this triggered an emotional reaction (with me sitting in my green Prius I named Tinker Bell, with my Tinker Bell Fairy decal sticker on the back, listening to my podcast, driving to work, when outside my window is this helpless man on the street) and I started to cry.

I have to be honest, I don’t help out beggars that often. I don’t feel good about the situation – but my husband and I are scraping by now until things change. But I deeply sympathize with their situations and I always wonder how they got there and how they’re surviving. What happened to their family and friends? A lot of homeless people have mental issues, as far as I have heard, and that could play a big part.

(I could go into a side note and speak about my mother’s struggle in life, constant downfalls even to where she had to live with us for 11 months, or be on the street, since she was homeless. Her story is a long one with lots of traumatic issues that she grew up that remained with her mentally and emotionally. It’s a heartbreaking story that I may write about one day. And although she and I don’t agree or get along, she is the strongest survivor I know.)

But no matter the reasons for beggars being on the street, I feel like a beggar asking for money is trying to take away my hard earned cash. HOWEVER, if they just have a sign that says “Hungry,” then they’re not asking for cash to spend who knows how they spend it. (Do you hear about those people who dress up being homeless for the money and acts like it’s their job to beg? People that are perfectly capable of getting real jobs?)

BUT If someone just wants food, you’re not wondering if this person is really homeless, or just acting homeless. They’re hungry.

And I had a banana in my lunchbox.

And my car was driving away.

I could’ve just handed the man…

Sigh.

So I felt bad. After I felt my feelings for the world, I decided to send him healing energy and light and prayers. I asked the universe to find him helping hands and food in his belly.

I can’t help everyone. I feel like I can barely help anyone… except perhaps with prayers, positive energy that I can move and shift towards him & others in need. I can co-work with the universe, Angels, Jesus, Goddess/God, Fairies, all those good benevolent beings who I turn to… and with prayers and positive energy sent, perhaps something GOOD will be received. Perhaps some people’s lives can be changed.

I hope & know that some people are braver than me and will always help the homeless, whether they have money or whatever they choose to give. But I tell you, my prayers are powerful. All of our prayers and projections are.

This is how I can take action.

What are your thoughts??

 

Until next time.

Namaste With Love

~Celestial K.

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Rabbit Hole of Mindfulness

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+I have a few meditation apps, one called Calm and one called Aura (both free versions, of course).

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Me doing some yoga with my friend Melissa as photographer. We actually went to a free yoga session after this in the RR Park in Birmingham, where she lives!

Calm mentioned something to me last time that stuck with me, and that is being mindful of the present instead of focusing on invading thoughts. I used to think – but why would I focus on mindfulness if I don’t want to be here in this situation? Usually I could take myself away with happy thoughts and daydreams.

But I start to realize that they mean mindfulness as an escape from nightmarish thoughts, the ones that get you in a negative state and poke at you eternally.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with co-worker issues. I am a friendly person, I swear, who always tries to do my best and be professional and be happy. But some personalities clash, and some people have different ideas on what is professional, and some people are two faced bitches.

(Yes, bitches has become my new favorite phrase lately, kind of makes me feel cathartic. Yes I’m a spiritual person, and it actually releases some stress when I say the word, so there!! lol)

Also, to be clear, I work in events where different people take charge and be the head House Manager for certain events, but lately everyone tries to take charge over other people, and it just doesn’t work. What is most annoying is, we are not working as a team when we should be.

We are talking behind each others’ backs, annoying the hell out of each other in person, and then smooth our faces several minutes later and pretend it didn’t happen, but continue to talk about each other. Does it sound like women to you? Yeah, it doesn’t help that in my department we’re mostly women. Apparently women who have trouble with team work.

I really don’t know what it is with certain people, or in my case certain co-workers, y’all. My husband says he works with mostly nice people, while my mom has had social problems at work all her life. I never thought I would have the problem myself, but there you go. I have a friend at work I can share my thoughts with, and she’s completely on my side, and thinks these certain people are weird, and rude, and those that just like to be in control and won’t have it another way. Won’t admit they’re wrong for anything.

(Which brings me to another tangent that whenever I’m in charge, I take the blame for whatever wrong occurs because guess what? I probably didn’t communicate clearly so something went wrong. Therefore, it’s my fault. I’m imperfect – I learn from it for next time. But if you’re in charge and don’t take the falls, then that’s an immature way to handle things. In my opinion.)

You can tell I’m dealing with stuff. And I find that these certain PEOPLE kept creeping up in my thoughts, and certain dang SITUATIONS replayed in my mind, whether how it turned out or how I would want it to turn out or… on and on and on.

So I’m realizing… oh, so MINDFULNESS is being in the moment, noticing what is happening and being more of an observer. Kind of taking out emotional reactions. But also being in the moment and with the people I’m with, (or with myself if I’m at home and ruminating), and not thinking about those replaying thoughts.

So, I’ve been trying to push the thoughts that make me feel negative away. Trying to replace it with positive ones, like concentrating on my goals, or thinking of my husband, or even general things like fairies and nature. Looking out a window at the sunshine.

BECAUSE if I don’t push out the thoughts, than those negative people and situations have taken control of me, have dominated me (probably how they wanted to dominate me) and I ALLOWED IT!!

So thought-control/mindfulness in this manner is one step that I’m taking, and one that will take a lot of PRACTICE. (Just like yoga is a forever practice.)

Another step I’m taking is prayer. Repeating affirmations about my life, my work, and my goals to Goddess/God, Angels, and the Universe. How do I want to solve this? What do I want my next steps to be? Can I pray to clear out of my life those that affect me negatively? It couldn’t hurt. Once you learn your physical lesson, that problem fades out of your life anyway. And I am certainly learning in this situation.

Practice.

Breathe slower.

Focus on mindfulness.

Vanishing thoughts.

Only pleasant thoughts.

 

Namaste With Love,

~Celestial K.

celestialk.weebly.com  (My site)

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