Clouds- A Poem

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This is the poem I wrote today as I stared off into the clouds and dreamed, and thought about how I can’t look at them enough. Often stuck in a building doing something. It was really nice to gaze and reflect, even if it was half a minute. 

But of course I started writing, so the Moment was even shorter: 😂 But when I have to write, I have to write!! 

Sorry for the lack of title. Clouds is the subject, but not title. A lot of times I write something quickly (I’m a very fast writer- this may have taken me one minute to write) and immediately post it, not caring about true editing or even a title. 

Literature teachers often say that poems need titles – no exceptions! (I was a literature teacher myself for 3 years.)  However, Im more of an Emily Dickinson person myself – writing with passion and awesomeness, no title. 

But I will say that in my poetry book Soul Thoughts, I wrote most of those poems in one summe, but I then took a few months to edit each one and make each one more awesome. Oh, and they all have titles. 😂💜💜

Glad I finally did a post, I know it’s been awhile. 

Namaste,

Celestial K.

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Lush Ocean – Poem

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Lush

Sensuous Ocean

That is Heaven,

I can feel you only

From the ghost inside me that

Knows you exist, somewhere

Obscure and inaccessible.

My imagination

Makes you here

But the longing

Is still too real.

 

~Celestial K.

 

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This gorgeous pic I did find on the internet, just for you ❤ 

If you have been following my blog, you may have gotten an inkling that I feel like I’m too far away from the water. I crave the ocean. My husband and I are planning a trip to visit it.

But seriously, to go to the lake, it’s an hour drive. To go to the beach, it’s 5 hour drive. That’s ridiculous to me.

But visiting the beach, and dreaming of the beach, is starting to not be enough for me. I have an urge to make a drastic change and move there!! I want it.

The problem is, two have to agree to big decisions in a marriage, and my husband is not ready to do that yet. This is one of the first times we don’t really see eye-to-eye. I say, why wait to make our dreams come true?! Because I know he wants to live near the beach, too. He’s said it before that it’s a dream location. But he’s thinking “maybe” in 5-10 years, which seems too long for me.

So I must hang on to prayers and hope that one day soon, he will feel the call of the ocean like I do.

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My husband and I last year on our Honeymoon cruise, here at Costa Maya – AND this was my birthday – which is coming up soon for this year! We could live happily at a beach, I think 😀

Wish us luck! 😉 Your prayers are welcome, too. I’ll do the same for you, just let me know what to pray for!

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Also the Honeymoon/Birthday Costa Maya cruise from last year.

Ghosts

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So the majority of my ghost experiences were when I was very young.

My parents didn’t tell me not to see them, or that what I was seeing was fake. In fact, my Godmother is psychic, so the higher begins that come through as my Godmother would channel told my parents  a bit about the history of some of the spirits that I was seeing.

Can you tell why I grew up to be a spiritual person?

I would mostly see children spirits, and want to play with them. I have two main vivid recollections of the spirits visiting me, the spirits that were once human. I want to clarify because I’ve had other experiences with sighting and feeling angels and fairies, and those are entirely different stories.

My first ghost story was when I was about 3 or 4, and seeing three sisters of different ages. I called them “the three Sarah’s,” even though that wasn’t their true names. I told my parents about the three children I was playing house with, and explained that their faces were scary. They looked scarred and charred. But they were nice, so I played with them. My parents found out through my Godmother that these were sisters that perished in a house fire, and their mother had died too, and gone to the light. So, the daughters were stuck in our realm, and hadn’t made the transition yet.

“Gone to the light,” is just another way of saying the soul moved onto the freer, spiritual realms where they can consult with their angels and the Creator about how their life went, and then the soul has a time to rest and replenish, and later decide if they want to return to earth again. All this information we learned from my Godmother, who became psychic after her near-death experience, where she did in fact die, and then return with the ability to channel positive beings coming through her.

As far as the three Sarah’s were concerned, my mom was determined to help the spirits “move on” into the light. But they were my friends, so I was reluctant. I wanted to keep playing with them. (Geez I think I needed more friends. I don’t think my brothers liked playing house.) My mom said they would feel better after they were in the light, and maybe reincarnate again. (Yes we believe in all this.)

 

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So my mom and I lit and candle (It’s supposed to help guide the spirit) and told the three Sarah’s that their mom was waiting for them in the light, and that they needed to go to her, and that they would be happier there. It worked.

Sometime after their spirits moved on, I briefly saw a boy spirit in our house. He looked about 11 years old. All I remember about him is the way he was sitting in our kitchen chairs, with his legs up, and saying that he liked my mom’s rice. It was just a brief visit, as I don’t remember anything more about him, but there you go. I guess he liked rice.

I hear a lot of times we see things as children, but sometimes the parents don’t encourage it, or don’t believe in it, so the children stopped seeing. I wanted to develop my eyes to see other spirits. For instance, now I don’t really see ghosts anymore but I love to spot fairies, or angels in the doorways. You can also train your eyes to see auras. I can write more about these later.

But you CAN train your eyes to see the spirit world, understanding that it is another dimension. The first step is believing, though. As a child, you believe almost anything. I don’t remember seeing fairies until I was 13, when I learned that they, in fact, were real. Of course they are not physical begins. But they can be seen by anyone, with practice.

Anyway, do YOU have any experiences with seeing spirits, perhaps when you were a young child? I would LOVE to hear anyone else’s experiences. I know they are out there! I’ve heard quite a few stories myself! My mom lived in 2 haunted houses in her life, after all.

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I hope you enjoyed this post — it’s an interesting one at least! Share your stories with me!

 

~Celestial K.

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Enough for Me- a poem

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Enough for Me

The essence of Nature

Could be enough

For me

Sustain my sanity

If only I was allowed

To rest here

simply

Forever.

  • Celestial K.

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This picture was taken by ME in ENGLAND in like 2011 I believe, when I was lucky enough to spend a whole week in England, getting to see both the city side and naturistic side! Loved everything and every minute and didn’t want to leave this wonderful country! The land keeps calling for me. One day, I’ll come back. 🙂

My innards, my soul, just churns and craves to frolic and rest and be one with nature. I tell you, my fairy side is coming out and beckoning strongly. It’s hard to be human and know I have to be cooped up inside working when I know I should be like a fairy and live among nature and trees and flowing water and wild animals.

But people don’t understand, and/or there’s nothing we can do about it (but save up for vacation). So those of us that have this yearning… just got to switch it off. Which is unnatural.

When I’m stressed, I want to go out in nature. With my job, I’m often coming home late at night from an event, so I can’t go outside after work usually. (I vote for more outdoor events!)

But I think, in some other life after this, I’m sure I’ll be allowed to just relax on some other planet or space and soak up the wonders of nature instead of worrying about human-things. Ah, how wonderful that will be!

Reminisce of Our First Date & LOA

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Lately I feel running around and stressed. I obviously haven’t had much time for writing, although I wish it were different. I think April will be an easier month where events are concerned at where I work, so maybe a little breather coming my way!

For the past few days, I’ve been celebrating my husband’s birthday, as well as the first day we met. His birthday is the 28th, and three years ago we met on the 27th in person. We met online at first, can you believe it? And now we’ve been married 10 months!

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Before I met the love of my life, I’d always dated guys that I met on free online dating websites because I went to Wesleyan College, the first college to grant degrees to women in 1836, and still an all-women’s college. I had to meet men somehow. 😉

I set out that “this time” after breaking up with my non-committing bf of 4 years, that “this time,” I would find the man of my heart’s core, the one I would marry and settle down with! I wasn’t going to stop until I found him, and I wasn’t giving up. Each guy I went on a date with, I became more and more specific with what qualities I wanted. (For instance, someone once drew to my attention that not everyone loves animals, and he didn’t care for my cat and… well… what?! Who could not love animals? Nah, never saw him again. Updated my online dating profile: My guy must love animals.)

I kept putting out to the universe each detail I wanted in a man! I was used to doing this spiritual process of the Law of Attraction, actually. I’ve always been able to land the guys that I called for with the exact qualities I asked for… just also with qualities I didn’t ask for. So I tried to make this marriage-relationship I tried to find incredibly detailed and not missing anything. Let’s just say the Universe brought me exactly what I requested!!! He’s the perfect man for me and he’s my soul mate, which is exactly what I searched for! There may be a few details I did not think about to ask, but it’s perfectly fine because we’re meant to be and we’re so in love 😀 We got married last May 21st.

I always recommend online dating to people, but I also recommend being detailed and sending out in your mind, projecting to the Universe, to the Angels, to the spirit of the Goddess-God, praying about what you dream of.

My husband and I met in the middle of where we lived, in a lovely coffee shop in Atlanta. He sat outside and had a red rose for me. My heart was beating fast as I realized this guy was HANDSOME and ROMANTIC… I might not just let him go. 😉 After two hours of talking, I asked him what time he liked to eat dinner. Then we walked and found a fancy pizza and wine place and enjoyed ourselves there till our midnight walk on the bridge together. We were actually too nervous to make the first move to kiss that night, as we waited for the other to make the move, but when he walked me to my car, I did ask him when I could see him next. Which I hadn’t really done (or followed through with) any of my previous dates. I knew it was right.

I proceeded to meet him and his family at his church (the one we ended up getting married in). I consider him and his family to have more spiritual/new age views, like I do, yet they go to a Lutheran church. We go? Well, Brian and I haven’t actually been in a long time, not too often since the wedding, since the two pastors moved on. Our schedules have changed a LOT since then, though, with his promotion and my new job. So, we don’t exactly get Sundays off anymore. (Why do people want events on Sunday mornings anyway??) The church wasn’t as important as community and family time, although it can be fun, even though I prefer Unity Church myself if I get to choose a church.

Anyway, we like to reenact the first day that we met every year, nice romantic gesture. It’s stressful when our jobs pulls us in separate directions, but we always find our way together and our way back to each other 🙂

Now, I need to make goals to do more yoga because I’ve been feeling out of wack when I don’t have enough time but a few dismal stretches a day. I need to make time to write, and read, and meditate. Time is all, and time is nothing. All is well, and all will be. 🙂

More later!

Namaste,

~Celestial K.

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I live for…

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Sometimes I have to think… what keeps me going? Why am I working so hard? All for what? It can’t be money. More like, memories to make with spending the money. It can’t be just for survival. It has to be about relationships with the beautiful people who have touched my life.

I live for those moments that I can spend with my husband. He is my love, he is my life, and after life. Our jobs do a good job at separating us sometimes, but we got to spend some time together these past few days, and the memories are something to keep in my heart! ❤

I live for the chance to breathe in nature. Not when it’s freezing outside, like today. But I’m living for the expectation that spring is around the corner. Living in the southern state of GA in the US, I am absolutely grateful that spring and summers and fall are usually quite warm seasons! (And in this years’ case, winter too…but today is freezing.)

I live for the chance to continue to travel the world! I love to travel – I’ve been to many places in the US, including California, and New York City, Hawaii, Alaska, and Florida… but there’s still more to see! I’ve been to several places outside of the US, too, like Mexico, Canada, Jamaica, Honduras, England (my favorite!), Germany, Russia, Sweden, Denmark and more. Many of these places I’ve only experienced briefly on a cruise. So I’d love to spend more time in Europe in my life! I have a love for England and Ireland, and I took French, so I really want to visit France. My family has Russian and German roots, so I went to spend more time in these places, too. Also, I love to travel to the beach! I live hours away from one, now, unfortunately. But maybe one day I’ll move closer to one again–or even the mountains! Who knows where the future will take us for vacations or  beyond?!

I live for the time I’ll find my kitty soul mate again. I had my Darlen, my Siamese, my precious cat who was with me most of my life and the companion exactly matching my soul, and one whom I could trust dearly. She passed on before Brian & I moved to our beautiful home and got married. I always told her when she passes on, her soul needs to find me again in reincarnation. After her passing, I realized that maybe she’s happier being body-less? She had a lot of problems and surgeries in her time with me. She lived to be 14. So maybe it’s a selfish thing to want her back. So maybe another animal soul mate will come to me? I truly miss the companionship. We have Brian’s cat Eesha who likes me enough, but the connection isn’t nearly as strong. She scratched me deeply once, and I still have a scar. (I didn’t talk to her for like a month.)  Brian and I hope in the future to get two cats who love each other, (kind of mirroring his parent’s twin gold-point Siamese cats Rowan and Merlin), and we each get to name one cat. We’ve already picked out the names of our cats 😀 We’re waiting for more financial freedom available before we get these dream-kitties though.

I live for friends and family, present and future. I say this because I’ve always believed friends (and love) is the meaning of life. Those deep friendships. Many of my friends who I’ve been connected to for many years live two hours away. One won’t even visit my house because she has bad asthma and can’t stand a cat. My friends are fantastic, but are not with me often. That makes me sad. But I do live for them, and also for the possibility of new friends in the future. I also live for my family in the respect of Brian is my love and we will one day most likely have children. We want children, just still not ready for them yet. Enjoying just being a couple. I’m not getting into the rest of the family to mention how grateful or not I am of them. Each person has a different story. In my mind, my story with Brain is the most important. ❤ (Ain’t I a ROMANTIC?! Lol I am, and luckily so is he.)

I live so that I can keep writing and get my novel published! Been working on this novel since I was 13 years old. It’s bound to be completely finished and published in some magical way soon… 😉 Hey, at least I got a poetry book out! Celestialk.weebly.com 😀 Self-published. Yeah, I don’t want to go the self-publishing route again, but we’ll see what the future holds.

I realize when I step back, I have a lot to live for, many memories to reminisce on when I feel like it, and so much to look forward to.

What are some things you are living for? What keeps you going? 

Namaste,

~Celestial K.

Dance ~ a poem

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The Creator made all
this universe inhale life
and sat back to watch it play.
 
Now who pulls at the painful
strings to tug the Earth
to this unwanted dance?
 
~Celestial K.
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earth dancingThis little poem says a lot.
I think of how this planet is so beautiful and has potential for such joy. But the way our lives are run have great flaws, and so everything can’t be the best it can be.
I am not deep into politics, and I don’t have ideas of how to fix government. I would, however, vouch for finding out who all, with war-ful hearts, are causing the injustice, un-peace,  dissatisfaction, and unfairness in our world, and then replace them with people who care about:
1) The planet Earth and keeping her healthy and happy and
2) The people and animals who inhabit the planet, and making sure we are also healthy and happy.
Different countries (and states) also run in different manners. But one that perhaps can relate is money. Through my involvement in New Age, I’ve listened to speakers and writers w ho have done the research and are convinced there is enough money in this whole world for everyone to have some and no one to go hungry. BUT the people with the power want the money, and don’t want to give it away. Do your own research and think what you will, but this is what I believe.
Despite all of that, I still think that most people are over-worked and underpaid. I say this through my personal experience and what I observe. We spend most of our lives working, and we absolutely must work to pay bills (unless you inherit money or are married to someone with money or something of that nature). And we work so much, often we forget that the most PRECIOUS thing we have on this planet is TIME with people we love! 
In my life, although  I completely love my careers now and the work that I do, I’m finding I’m not spending time at home and with my husband like I want. Especially my nights and weekends are taken away, because I work managing events, and many events are on nights and weekends! I do not want to complain, I just want more time with my husband and more time at home, and that’s something personal that I’m going to have to work through by projecting what I want for the future. That’s another good thing about creating your own reality… you find what you want and what you don’t want through experience, and then you have to take steps to change it. In my case, I’m not sure how I am going to create time for myself and my husband, but cosmically, what is supposed to happen will happen once I start creating the thoughts.
This is getting me into the topic of creating my own reality, which I should save for another day. If you have an interest in that topic, you can ask me about it, and/or I would strongly recommend the book: Ask and It is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires by Esther and Jerry Hicks. 
That all being said, there are MANY positive changes that Mother Earth needs to go through, and our lives needs to go through! But it has to start with us. Praying (like projecting your desires) is a power that we all have. If you want positive change in this world to take place with our leaders, our planet’s health, saving our animals, making a more fair work system or health insurance system or anything else you can think of… please pray with me on it. Project positive into the future.
Namaste!!
❤ Celestial K.